So I have this weird ability...
I can remember random things from years ago and to this day every time the day or time appears I always think back to that memory. I can also remember all of my phone numbers from my childhood... Call me weird but I think it's easier to remember my old numbers because I didn't have a cell phone to hold the number for me. Back then couldn't ask Siri to "call mom" hahaha
Anyways back to my remembering. Five years ago today I got the biggest shock of my life. Why am I telling you this? Probably because this day (next to my engagement day and wedding day) was probably the greatest day of my life.
March 18...2009. I found out I was expecting my first child. It's now 3/18/14 and I have this little boy sitting in the front room practicing his letters for school. I call him Cash. My first born child - whom I found I was pregnant with on March 18...five years ago. I can't help but smile every time this date pops up on the calendar. The feelings - the excitement - being scared...all the emotions rolled into one as I stopped by the store after going to the gym at 5:30 in the morning to get a pregnancy test. Only to get home - go pee and see two little pink lines pop up. I will never forget that. It makes me cry because that feeling will probably never happen again - but to be able to think back on that morning every year at the same time...how can you not smile.
I now have this stubborn little boy who is going to be 5 in October. I'm so happy he is growing into this little man but so sad he is no longer my little bug. He is becoming a big bug. It's amazing how fast time flies. It was like yesterday I was getting the shock of my life and now this little boy is almost done with his first year of preschool. Can I cry?
You're probably thinking - well what about Colt. That date was March 8. 3/8/10 when I found out I was pregnant with Colt. Now that is a different story. Having a 3.5 month old and then finding out you are expecting again brings about all new crazy emotions hahaha I still smile on that day - but I also cry on that date as well. It was also the date that I fully miscarried a 10 week old fetus that was another boy. So that date has high points and low points for me.
Either way... my ability to remember random dates and every year bring back the memory is nuts. Jeff thinks I am crazy and says "why don't you just forget about stuff like that". You can't. I can't. For some reason they happened and I will never forget random dates. Or like the time on 4/22/06 when I went on this date with a crazy sexy man whom I now call my husband. I still remember that date and he doesn't hate me for it hahaha
So five years ago today I found out Cash was coming.
Best day of my life.
I like the number 5!
